Goodbyes, Loneliness and Everything in Between

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Thursday nights always start the weekend for me in the summer, since we have Fridays off. And I'm not complaining one bit.

Thursday

Last night, after work, I went to a going away party for one of my good friends and coworkers. Over the years, I've (somewhat) gotten used to goodbyes as I've seen people come and go in my life, whether it be friends or colleagues, because life is always changing. But, I can't say that it gets easier. McKenzie is moving away; starting a new chapter in her life, and I couldn't be more excited for her. However, selfishly, I didn't want her to go, because she's just one of the absolute best people in our office and so fun to be around. We shared an office (though I was hesitant about that at first) and was one of the best things that could've happened.

So many of us from work went to one of the local restaurants nearby to hang out and celebrate McKenzie. It's always nice to see coworkers out of the typical office setting and talk to each other on a more personal level. We talked about Gilmore Girls, another coworkers trip to Hawaii, and of course, what McKenzie's new life will look like. I didn't stay long, but it gave me a chance to give her a hug and once again, tell her I'll miss her, and she said she'd scope out places so when I visit, she'll know of the cool places to go to.


Friday

I started my day off with a walk with my dad, then we had a lazy morning, including waffles, "Fuller House" and I did some reading. Close to noon, I decided to get ready and do something with my life. I ran a few errands with my parents, had lunch with them, then we took a drive. We got out for a few minutes and stood underneath the trees as they swayed back and forth. The rustling of the branches and the swishing of the water was so soothing. I could've stayed out there longer. Even just a short drive through the canyon clears my mind and inspires me, and let's be honest...Gets me away from my phone more. How can you ignore the beautiful lake and greenery surrounding it? 


One of my good friends Brittany checked in with me this morning about doing something tonight. I have a tendency to be a hermit sometimes, and it's easy for me to say no to invitations. It's not necessarily because I want to, but I get anxiety with large groups and parties, and I just tend to let fear get in the way. Even in high school, it was just often easier for me to decline than to go. I struggle with loneliness. And it isn't because I don't have friends. I know I do. I said yes, though, because we haven't hung out in awhile. 

I find myself isolating from everyone, especially during the summer when the hours are long and I don't HAVE to be social with work events or other social activities. When I don't have a set schedule, it's even easier to hide. Brittany and I met up at our favorite coffee shop and talked about some of those things. Because there's power in sharing and realizing that someone else that you trust and care about has been there too, or is going through it with you. We enjoyed our blueberry lemonades and I ordered a Greek Salad, which is delicious and tried to escape the summer heat which was still blazing last night at 7 p.m. 


When I finished dinner, I went over to my friend Athena's house for a movie. We've talked about doing one forever. And while originally we'd planned to watch "Star Trek," we decided on "Black Panther" because I hadn't seen that one and have wanted to for awhile now. I wasn't sure what to expect with it, but I was blown away - the storyline was neatly executed, the actors were phenomenal, the music was on point and the costumes/graphics/makeup/action were so perfectly detailed and arranged for the larger picture. 

I came around midnight and went to bed. A long, but very fulfilling day. 


Saturday

Saturday was another relaxing day of not doing much. I woke up earlier and went on a walk with my dad to beat the heat. It's been nice taking our time to get some exercise in in the morning and spend time together.


We came home and ate breakfast shortly after, and took our time getting ready - we watched TV, I read some and lounged around. I can't remember the last time I wasn't rushing somewhere or didn't have anywhere to be like that, so I took advantage of it. 

There really isn't much else to report. We had lunch at one of our favorite restaurants, ran a couple errands and finished the night off with dinner and hanging out at home. Very simple, but in the end, I'm thankful for it, because I knew Sunday would be a busier day.

That's all for now, 
Shelby

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